“Eating Disorder”
Everyone keeps saying that
I am plagued by overweight
That is all I know
My body has become my nightmare
In my society,
The ones with slim body gets celebrated
The fat ones are called disgusting names
No one wants to associate with them
I grew up with these mentality
I must never get fat
Being on the big side is a sin
It’s a dream you do not want to have
My momma says I have the tendency to be
She told me being slim means malnourishment
My papa said I am his favorite child
because I look like his grandmom
“Who died obese”
He says a fat lady is a true African beauty
And a slim lady needs help
I am beautiful enough
I just want to loose this fat
And not die like my granny!
All my colleagues are size ‘6 and ‘8
And I feel left out with my ’12
Even the clients relate more with them
And see me as the weird fat girl
Because I avoid social functions
And I am so withdrawn
As a result of this, food has now become my enemy
I dread it
I avoid it
My eating pattern is so irregular
I use laxatives after a heavy meal
My best friend said I need help
She calls it Anorexia
After all, she has the perfect size
I cannot blame her
He who wears the shoes
Knows where it hurt
“Fat is usually the first insult a girl throws at another girl when she wants to hurt her. I mean, is ‘fat’ really the worst thing a human being can be? Is ‘fat’ worse than ‘vindictive’, ‘jealous’, ‘shallow’, ‘vain’, ‘boring’ or ‘cruel’? Not to me.”-J.K Rowling
I just want to look like the girl we saw on Vogue cover page yesterday
They seem to have the best life
All glitz and glamour
No one look at a big girl twice
Fashion houses prefers skinny models
We all laughed about Tiwa’s size in
I want to be like Kendal Jenner
Paparazzi follows her everywhere
My boyfriend said I am dying
I do not think so
He said I have Eating Disorder
Whatever that means
I am happy and content
I take more of liquids
That’s food too and more healthy
Most of all, I take time to count my calories
I occasionally have headaches
My periods are irregular
But that is fine
It will go
I am healthy
Exercising is not a problem
I workout in the gym twice daily
I would be fine
You know I will, right?
I have lost so much weight now
Totally loving my new body
And that is all that matters
“Girls developed eating disorders when our culture developed a standard of beauty that they couldn’t obtain by being healthy. When unnatural thinness became attractive, girls did unnatural things to be thin.” – Mary Pipher
Check sequel post about Eating Disorder on my Instagram
Oh my! Our society has a way of shaping our thoughts. I’m a skinny girl and I’m not ashamed. My mum says I’m too lean, friends says I don’t feed well and my neck looks like Fanta bottle.
Whatever, for all I care! I love my body the way I am. What anybody says about my body doesn’t define me simple!
Go girl! You’ll be fine.
Author
I love your view about your body!!! Very amazing and perfect!!! Thanks Lara for reading and sharing your thoughts!
Great thoughts and perspective indeed, society dictates everything that we do, how we dress, and how we talk. Sad really, thanks for the reminder about loving yourself. Greetings!
Author
Yes, society! Greetings Blogoratti, thanks for stopping by ?
On our part we can help humanity by not calling people “fat” or “thin” . Let’s ‘use mild anguages like ” big ” or “slim” when describing people so that they won’t destest their nature.
Author
Makes sense!?? Thanks Wale, this is fair enough…
I believe one should look good for himself not for the society or what people say,i try to look good for myself first.The question is do I like myself the way i am,if am cool with myself then anyone can say whatever.
Author
Perfect!!! I agree with you on this. Self love should always come first…
This is really nice. Love the writing.. can I call it a poem? But it’s nice. The details too, you’re really on point. I try to love myself while working to be the best version of me.
Author
Thanks so much Favour. It can definitely pass as a poem too. Self love is all we need to be the best version of us…